Over a year ago, shortly after having to reside in Louisiana, I decided to turn my hobby of growing plants into a small business. With my father and sister as partners, we created Lazy L Nursery, LLC. It all began in a small 10' x 20' hobby greenhouse and is now expanding into the 30' x 96' greenhouse. Our first year was a bit slow, however, we were able to get hundreds of perennials started for future use. Most perennials take upwards to over two years before they will be ready for sale, however, most of ours were producing flowers their first year.
The name came from what my grandmother always said she wanted to call the farm - Lazy L - the L represents my grandmother's last name of Lee, not my name of Lynn.
This is our second Winter and the big greenhouse is still under construction so we are using the new 8' x 12' hobby greenhouse (the other one was destroyed in a tornado.) and just constructed a temporary 10' x 20' structure to house all of the plants we are growing for an Austin client.
If you'd like to learn more about the nursery, what we're growing, and how we grow it then please check out the new Lazy L Nursery Blog.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
Broken People
Lonely, exhausted, troubled, scared, and broken they are as they meander haplessly through what others call life, yet they journey alone. Broken from not being able to move past their own mistakes, from being hurt too many times by others, and from not being able to believe or trust in anything or anyone. They are all around. You can barely notice them because they don't want to be noticed any longer, yearning to disappear into the nothingness. They long for something else, but are always believing, "no one will notice me, I'm not needed here."
What has happened in our society that has caused so many broken people? Maybe being modern has caused people to loose touch with the need for human companionship, hasn't taught people how to effectively relate with others, and has caused people to question what is important or right.
It's time for a revolution! I watch and listen and see that the people are tired of a government that doesn't operate in a manner that protects it's people or even cares about them. I see a world that has lost touch with humanity, caring, and love. Is it time for a revolution? Yes! Maybe through a compassionate approach there is hope to obtaining a government that operates for the people, not big business; that some how there can be a reconnection of the people and they can learn the importance of other humans; and with hope people can learn that our modern day things are only tools, not a way to escape being human.
What has happened in our society that has caused so many broken people? Maybe being modern has caused people to loose touch with the need for human companionship, hasn't taught people how to effectively relate with others, and has caused people to question what is important or right.
It's time for a revolution! I watch and listen and see that the people are tired of a government that doesn't operate in a manner that protects it's people or even cares about them. I see a world that has lost touch with humanity, caring, and love. Is it time for a revolution? Yes! Maybe through a compassionate approach there is hope to obtaining a government that operates for the people, not big business; that some how there can be a reconnection of the people and they can learn the importance of other humans; and with hope people can learn that our modern day things are only tools, not a way to escape being human.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
"Play Again"
Playing Solitaire on my computer again, but this time it’s different with a feeling of loneliness, sadness, loss, and thoughts of what could have been invade my mind tonight. “Play Again” the screen displays, one click and then“Exit” or “Try Again” are the options. If only life was this easy.
There are many times I wish I could “Play Again” and then select “Try Again”, but that isn’t the option in life, only a parting wish for a man who longs for something more, always searching, but never finding that place of belonging. Since a child I knew I didn’t belong, perhaps it’s because I was born at the wrong time, a universal accident of sorts, or is it that there were lessons I needed to learn in this life to prepare me for something in another life?
I only hope that the lessons learned in this life will greatly enhance the living in the next life. You may inquire, “What have you learned?” I’d answer simply.
More isn’t always better, money doesn’t make you happy, being a friend means knowing when to forgive and when to just listen, family is something you are born to and they serve a purpose to provide us with a foundation to build upon. Life can be beautiful, it can also be dark. There is something within each of us that longs for some type of connection, that feeling of being part of something more important than ourselves, but there is also a part of us that doesn’t feel that we can ever really achieve such a connection.
Lately, the computer screen is brightly lit during the lonesome dark hours of night as thoughts of what shall be, what is, and what has been pervade my mind. The creativity flows, but only limitedly, mostly because of a fear to dream again, to “Try Again”. However, the dreams are fading along with the brightness in my eyes, the cheer of my heart, and the desire to even try again.
Time is with me now, along with a calling from those who have gone before, as I hear the call to move forward into that universal unknown that many fear, yet I long for it. Perhaps for me it’s the next great adventure? All I know for now is that my time here is drawing to a close, the stage lights are dimming, the curtain call is coming soon. I’m ready.
There are many times I wish I could “Play Again” and then select “Try Again”, but that isn’t the option in life, only a parting wish for a man who longs for something more, always searching, but never finding that place of belonging. Since a child I knew I didn’t belong, perhaps it’s because I was born at the wrong time, a universal accident of sorts, or is it that there were lessons I needed to learn in this life to prepare me for something in another life?
I only hope that the lessons learned in this life will greatly enhance the living in the next life. You may inquire, “What have you learned?” I’d answer simply.
More isn’t always better, money doesn’t make you happy, being a friend means knowing when to forgive and when to just listen, family is something you are born to and they serve a purpose to provide us with a foundation to build upon. Life can be beautiful, it can also be dark. There is something within each of us that longs for some type of connection, that feeling of being part of something more important than ourselves, but there is also a part of us that doesn’t feel that we can ever really achieve such a connection.
Lately, the computer screen is brightly lit during the lonesome dark hours of night as thoughts of what shall be, what is, and what has been pervade my mind. The creativity flows, but only limitedly, mostly because of a fear to dream again, to “Try Again”. However, the dreams are fading along with the brightness in my eyes, the cheer of my heart, and the desire to even try again.
Time is with me now, along with a calling from those who have gone before, as I hear the call to move forward into that universal unknown that many fear, yet I long for it. Perhaps for me it’s the next great adventure? All I know for now is that my time here is drawing to a close, the stage lights are dimming, the curtain call is coming soon. I’m ready.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Names and Numerology
Ever since I can remember I have been dwelling in the unknown, those aspects of life that most don't consider as a reality. However, I believe strongly that the forces that are not seen are very strong in our lives and affect who we are, what we do, and how we progress in life. Thus, I thought I would share some numerology reports as they relate to my various companies and myself, but please keep in mind that these are purely based upon the letters of the words, and not the very effective dates of birth.
StTroy Consulting and Design - My Austin based business.
Expression: 112 / 4
You are the builder of the world. With your organized, efficient approach everything gets done right the first time. You emanate security and would sacrifice your own desires for your family and anyone or anything else that you considered a responsibility. You have a relentless eye for value and quality and you have the patience and determination to work for it.
Soul Urge: 46 / 10 / 1
You are the essence of individuality and independence. You are intense and convicted when it comes to defending your beliefs, as you never doubt your inner strength and ability to handle any challenge. Many are inspired by your confidence, while others may feel irritated and view it as arrogance. You are likely to attract people and situations that allow you to express this part of yourself or else they will mirror these traits back to you.
Personality: 66 / 12 / 3
There seems to be a golden glow of optimism and joy around you wherever you go. You are witty and playful, and your idealistic nature irresistibly draws the little child out of everyone you meet. Ever creative and interesting to talk to, you are never long without people to cluster around your radiance. You enjoy dressing up and are very creative with accessories. You've got a style all your own, even if you don't follow fashion.
Lazy L Nursery LLC - my Louisiana based business.
Expression: 70 / 7
Yours is the path of the mind. Silence and solitude are your doorways into the deep recesses of the mind and the universe. You are the philosopher, the analyst, the seeker and if you'd be willing, the teacher. The time and energy that you spend discovering the microscopic core of things has gifted you with the ability to tap into psychic energy. It is with this energy that you can separate the true from the false.
Soul Urge: 23 / 5
Variety is what drives you. For this reason travel, the arts, education and self expression are areas where you are likely to be found. Freedom to choose, to move about without limitation, to absorb information and to observe life are imperative to your inner health and happiness. You crave stimulation and may be drawn to exhilarating adventures and death-defying sports. Your sensual nature will lead the way.
Personality: 47 / 11 / 2
You have a very neat, composed appearance to the outside world. Peaceful and unobtrusive, you are the one people go to for companionship and harmony. You seem to have a quiet, non-judgmental wisdom which attracts those needing advise and an objective point of view. Your ability to see both sides of a situation makes you appear indecisive.
And finally, myself and my two names:
Sebastian St.Troy - my assumed name
Expression: 54 / 9
You have a vision of a perfect world. Forgiveness, Love and altruism are the path you walk. You are the idealist, and you do everything in your power to live up to your ideals in order to be a good example for others to follow. Inside, you know that you will be imitated, so you are extremely aware of your every "imperfection". Letting go of people and places when you have fulfilled your role with them is an important lesson for you. There are many that need to be touched by your wisdom.
Soul Urge: 29 / 11 / 2
Peace and harmony is your desire. You are a natural mediator as you are genuine, tactful and adaptable. You tend to put your own will aside for others and it is difficult for you to make decisions. This may cause others to see you as shy, or lacking confidence. Your sensitivity and gentleness can be a great healing force bringing harmony and support to others.
Personality: 25 / 7
There is an air of mystery and secrecy about you. You are poised and sophisticated, and prefer to dress in a clean, well-groomed and understated way. You seem unapproachable to others because of your introspective and analytical temperament. You are the philosophical loner, the probing seeker, and only those of like-mind really understand.
Jimmy Lynn Boney - My birth name.
Expression: 70 / 7
Yours is the path of the mind. Silence and solitude are your doorways into the deep recesses of the mind and the universe. You are the philosopher, the analyst, the seeker and if you'd be willing, the teacher. The time and energy that you spend discovering the microscopic core of things has gifted you with the ability to tap into psychic energy. It is with this energy that you can separate the true from the false.
Soul Urge: 34 / 7
You are a philosopher by nature. Inside, you are calm shy and reserved, preferring to live alone in your own perfect world of thoughts and intuitive analysis of life's deeper mysteries. You experience irritation and upset in noisy or chaotic environments, as your hearing is more sensitive than most peoples. You have a good ear for music and are probably drawn to complex and meditative melodies.
Personality: 36 / 9
People seem to be drawn to you for absolution. You emanate forgiveness, compassion and understanding. Your charming and generous personality brings you love and good luck in abundance. Many people will be attracted to you because of your idealistic and romantic nature. Others will be transformed by your example. You express yourself in the way you dress, and it can range from dramatically bold to mystically romantic to "struggling artist".
StTroy Consulting and Design - My Austin based business.
Expression: 112 / 4
You are the builder of the world. With your organized, efficient approach everything gets done right the first time. You emanate security and would sacrifice your own desires for your family and anyone or anything else that you considered a responsibility. You have a relentless eye for value and quality and you have the patience and determination to work for it.
Soul Urge: 46 / 10 / 1
You are the essence of individuality and independence. You are intense and convicted when it comes to defending your beliefs, as you never doubt your inner strength and ability to handle any challenge. Many are inspired by your confidence, while others may feel irritated and view it as arrogance. You are likely to attract people and situations that allow you to express this part of yourself or else they will mirror these traits back to you.
Personality: 66 / 12 / 3
There seems to be a golden glow of optimism and joy around you wherever you go. You are witty and playful, and your idealistic nature irresistibly draws the little child out of everyone you meet. Ever creative and interesting to talk to, you are never long without people to cluster around your radiance. You enjoy dressing up and are very creative with accessories. You've got a style all your own, even if you don't follow fashion.
Lazy L Nursery LLC - my Louisiana based business.
Expression: 70 / 7
Yours is the path of the mind. Silence and solitude are your doorways into the deep recesses of the mind and the universe. You are the philosopher, the analyst, the seeker and if you'd be willing, the teacher. The time and energy that you spend discovering the microscopic core of things has gifted you with the ability to tap into psychic energy. It is with this energy that you can separate the true from the false.
Soul Urge: 23 / 5
Variety is what drives you. For this reason travel, the arts, education and self expression are areas where you are likely to be found. Freedom to choose, to move about without limitation, to absorb information and to observe life are imperative to your inner health and happiness. You crave stimulation and may be drawn to exhilarating adventures and death-defying sports. Your sensual nature will lead the way.
Personality: 47 / 11 / 2
You have a very neat, composed appearance to the outside world. Peaceful and unobtrusive, you are the one people go to for companionship and harmony. You seem to have a quiet, non-judgmental wisdom which attracts those needing advise and an objective point of view. Your ability to see both sides of a situation makes you appear indecisive.
And finally, myself and my two names:
Sebastian St.Troy - my assumed name
Expression: 54 / 9
You have a vision of a perfect world. Forgiveness, Love and altruism are the path you walk. You are the idealist, and you do everything in your power to live up to your ideals in order to be a good example for others to follow. Inside, you know that you will be imitated, so you are extremely aware of your every "imperfection". Letting go of people and places when you have fulfilled your role with them is an important lesson for you. There are many that need to be touched by your wisdom.
Soul Urge: 29 / 11 / 2
Peace and harmony is your desire. You are a natural mediator as you are genuine, tactful and adaptable. You tend to put your own will aside for others and it is difficult for you to make decisions. This may cause others to see you as shy, or lacking confidence. Your sensitivity and gentleness can be a great healing force bringing harmony and support to others.
Personality: 25 / 7
There is an air of mystery and secrecy about you. You are poised and sophisticated, and prefer to dress in a clean, well-groomed and understated way. You seem unapproachable to others because of your introspective and analytical temperament. You are the philosophical loner, the probing seeker, and only those of like-mind really understand.
Jimmy Lynn Boney - My birth name.
Expression: 70 / 7
Yours is the path of the mind. Silence and solitude are your doorways into the deep recesses of the mind and the universe. You are the philosopher, the analyst, the seeker and if you'd be willing, the teacher. The time and energy that you spend discovering the microscopic core of things has gifted you with the ability to tap into psychic energy. It is with this energy that you can separate the true from the false.
Soul Urge: 34 / 7
You are a philosopher by nature. Inside, you are calm shy and reserved, preferring to live alone in your own perfect world of thoughts and intuitive analysis of life's deeper mysteries. You experience irritation and upset in noisy or chaotic environments, as your hearing is more sensitive than most peoples. You have a good ear for music and are probably drawn to complex and meditative melodies.
Personality: 36 / 9
People seem to be drawn to you for absolution. You emanate forgiveness, compassion and understanding. Your charming and generous personality brings you love and good luck in abundance. Many people will be attracted to you because of your idealistic and romantic nature. Others will be transformed by your example. You express yourself in the way you dress, and it can range from dramatically bold to mystically romantic to "struggling artist".
Friday, April 24, 2009
The "I Ching" and Questions
Today I've been feeling some very strong, old emotions that I've been suppressing for a very long time. I've cried, felt very sad, felt blessed, remembered the good times of the past, and am filled with hope for the future. There was a time when I didn't even want a future, but something within me has changed. I now want to achieve success, to build something greater than myself, and to bring my family back together.
After seeing my Holographic Repatterner, Lauren, I now say, "I take the risks to go for what is most important to me." every day as something to help guide me in my decisions, and I suppose to help me determine what things are the most important to me. My family, my friends, my two businesses, and my two homes are very important to me, and in that order. I'm blessed beyond compare with a loving family, awesome friends, and incredible places to live and work. It's not I, but the Divine (or Universal Consciousness) that has blessed me, yes, you might say I'm talented, but that talent was a gift as well.
I'm learning how to use my gifts to guide, teach, and build something for the future. A future I'm now looking forward to, which is a strong contrast to how I felt this time last year.
Tonight I cast the "I Ching" to see what was guiding me in some areas and here is what it said:
The answer to your question, "Will St.Troy Consulting have an income over $3000 per month?" is:
The answer to your question, "What is causing the strong emotions I'm feeling today?" is:
42. I - Increase
-----
----- above Sun The Gentle, Wind
-- --
-- --
-- -- below Chên The Arousing, Thunder
-----
The Judgement
Increase. It furthers one
To undertake something.
It furthers one to cross the great water.
The Image
Wind and thunder: the image of Increase.
Thus the superior man:
If he sees good, he imitates it;
If he has faults, he rids himself of them.
What does all of this mean? It means that I have the opportunity to do much this year and that I'm growing, increasing, learning, and becoming the person I've been meant to become. I like the new me and seek to find ways of achieving even more and am encouraged by the possibilities of the morrow.
Thought for the day: Do you like who you are at this very moment?
After seeing my Holographic Repatterner, Lauren, I now say, "I take the risks to go for what is most important to me." every day as something to help guide me in my decisions, and I suppose to help me determine what things are the most important to me. My family, my friends, my two businesses, and my two homes are very important to me, and in that order. I'm blessed beyond compare with a loving family, awesome friends, and incredible places to live and work. It's not I, but the Divine (or Universal Consciousness) that has blessed me, yes, you might say I'm talented, but that talent was a gift as well.
I'm learning how to use my gifts to guide, teach, and build something for the future. A future I'm now looking forward to, which is a strong contrast to how I felt this time last year.
Tonight I cast the "I Ching" to see what was guiding me in some areas and here is what it said:
The answer to your question, "Will St.Troy Consulting have an income over $3000 per month?" is:
57. Sun - The Gentle (The Penetrating, Wind)
-----
----- above Sun The Gentle, Wind
-- --
-----
----- below Sun The Gentle, Wind
-- --
The Judgement
The Gentle. Success through what is small.
It furthers one to have somewhere to go.
It furthers one to see the great man.
The Image
Winds following one upon the other:
The image of the Gently Penetrating.
Thus the superior man
Spreads his commands abroad
And carries out his undertakings.
The answer to your question, "What is causing the strong emotions I'm feeling today?" is:
42. I - Increase
-----
----- above Sun The Gentle, Wind
-- --
-- --
-- -- below Chên The Arousing, Thunder
-----
The Judgement
Increase. It furthers one
To undertake something.
It furthers one to cross the great water.
The Image
Wind and thunder: the image of Increase.
Thus the superior man:
If he sees good, he imitates it;
If he has faults, he rids himself of them.
What does all of this mean? It means that I have the opportunity to do much this year and that I'm growing, increasing, learning, and becoming the person I've been meant to become. I like the new me and seek to find ways of achieving even more and am encouraged by the possibilities of the morrow.
Thought for the day: Do you like who you are at this very moment?
Thursday, March 26, 2009
The Turtle
Today, while I was doing chores around the farm, I ran across two turtles walking across my path. I amazed at their size and how far they were from the pond. They kept staring at me but didn't hide away in their shells. I knew they must have a message for me, so I had to look it up. I have to admit, that this message hit home today. Here is the message from the turtle:
Turtle is the oldest symbol for the Earth.
It is the personification of goddess energy and the eternal Earth itself.
If you have a Turtle totem,
you must be mindful of returning to the Earth what she has given you.
Honor the creative source within you.
Use water and earth energies to create a harmonious flow in your life.
Ask the Earth for assistance and her riches will pour forth.
If a Turtle totem shows up in your life,
slow down the pace of your life.
Bigger, stronger, faster are not always the best ways to reach your goals.
Turtle is fine teacher of the art of grounding.
When you learn to ground yourself to Earth's power and strength,
you place focus on your thoughts and actions
and use the Earth's limitless energies rather than your own to accomplish your will.
Turtle is the keeper of doors
and one of the ways into the Faerie Realm.
Yes, grounding myself, slowing down, connecting with Earth's power, focusing my thoughts are important to me. Since I've been asking the Universe to open some doors lately, see the post about the Raven where I asked the Raven to carry my dreams out into the universe, then I'm not surprised that the turtles were here to help me open the doors, and I'm excited about the doors into the Faerie Realm, as there is wonderful magic there that frees the mind, lifts the spirits, and brings wonder to thoughts and beliefs.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Advancing Credentials in Australia
As the years have passed, as I have seen how my work has assisted people, and since I'm stepping out into new business ventures and expanding old ones, I've decided to expand my learning. Master Feng, a descendant of the Founding Father of Feng Shui – King Wen, is holding a Feng Shui practitioner training in Sydney, Australia. He is only holding the trainings in Australia this year, so I have to request that the Universe allow me the opportunity to make this trip.
Since I have never been to Australia, but have always wanted to visit, I've decided to set intentions to save funds and work extra hard to make this trip. I have set aside a few weeks for the trip so I can explore some of the beautiful Australian Outback and wonders of Sydney.
The course, with the Out of Country Savings is $2,988.
The round trip airfare is $1,500.
Hotel in Sydney for the training is $700.
Spending money for the rest of the trip is $3,500.
Total: $8,988.
Thus, I'm thanking the Universe for bringing me the clients to fund this additional training and adventure in late October through the end of November. I trust that by setting this intention here that I'll be reminded to set other intentions to support this one. Now, to get to work and save enough money to fund this trip and education.
Since I have never been to Australia, but have always wanted to visit, I've decided to set intentions to save funds and work extra hard to make this trip. I have set aside a few weeks for the trip so I can explore some of the beautiful Australian Outback and wonders of Sydney.
The course, with the Out of Country Savings is $2,988.
The round trip airfare is $1,500.
Hotel in Sydney for the training is $700.
Spending money for the rest of the trip is $3,500.
Total: $8,988.
Thus, I'm thanking the Universe for bringing me the clients to fund this additional training and adventure in late October through the end of November. I trust that by setting this intention here that I'll be reminded to set other intentions to support this one. Now, to get to work and save enough money to fund this trip and education.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
The Raven's Magic
According to Jamie Sams and David Carson, in their excellent book Medicine Cards (which accompanies a beautiful deck of animal cards), Raven's medicine is magic. She is the Great Mystery of the Void.
Black, to Native Americans, is a color of magical power, and only to be feared if misused. Raven symbolizes the void - the mystery of that which is not yet formed. Ravens are symbolic of the Black Hole in Space, which draws in all energy toward itself and releases it in new forms. The iridescent blue and green that can be seen in the glossy black feathers of the raven represents the constant change of forms and shapes that emerge from the vast blackness of the void. In Native American tradition, Raven is the guardian of both ceremonial magic and healing circles. She is also the patron of smoke signals.
Raven's element is air, and she is a messenger spirit, which Native American shamans use to project their magic over great distances.
Black, to Native Americans, is a color of magical power, and only to be feared if misused. Raven symbolizes the void - the mystery of that which is not yet formed. Ravens are symbolic of the Black Hole in Space, which draws in all energy toward itself and releases it in new forms. The iridescent blue and green that can be seen in the glossy black feathers of the raven represents the constant change of forms and shapes that emerge from the vast blackness of the void. In Native American tradition, Raven is the guardian of both ceremonial magic and healing circles. She is also the patron of smoke signals.
Raven's element is air, and she is a messenger spirit, which Native American shamans use to project their magic over great distances.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Views, not opinions
Believing that living in a space that lifts your spirits, that allows you to find relaxation, and that brings you closer to the natural environment is important, I wanted to share some of the views from the spaces where I reside. The first few photos are from the Cabin in Louisiana and the last view is from the house in Austin.
This is the view from my cabin out North. You can see the Wealth Garden that is being constructed using an old satellite dish. In the future this garden area will have some flowering trees and a lot of natural flowers.
This is the big window view out onto the lake. It also shows the new palm tree. In the future there will be an arbored patio area off of this window which will allow me to sit outside by the lake.
This view is out from my bathroom onto the back yard. My dog's large run is out there, along with the back patio area.
This is the view from the roof top patio at the Austin home. Kendree Custom Homes built the house and Shannon Schmitz, a Turnquist Partners Realtor, arranged for me to get this awesome home.
This is the view from my cabin out North. You can see the Wealth Garden that is being constructed using an old satellite dish. In the future this garden area will have some flowering trees and a lot of natural flowers.
This is the big window view out onto the lake. It also shows the new palm tree. In the future there will be an arbored patio area off of this window which will allow me to sit outside by the lake.
This view is out from my bathroom onto the back yard. My dog's large run is out there, along with the back patio area.
This is the view from the roof top patio at the Austin home. Kendree Custom Homes built the house and Shannon Schmitz, a Turnquist Partners Realtor, arranged for me to get this awesome home.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Growing a Business
Now that the universe has prepared a place for me in Austin, my business is growing, and I have the opportunity to create the life I desire I have to find new and creative ways of growing my business - St.Troy Consulting & Design. I have been providing Feng Shui consults for home owners, businesses, and Realtors (through Listing Consults where we prepare the home for market) for years now. The opportunities are growing now in Austin for my business talents and I have to find ways to fund new aspects.
The biggest aspect I am now asking the universe to bring about is assistance in funding the new Staging Rentals service. In order to be able to reach my target audience in Austin I need to purchase around $30,000 in furniture so it will be on hand to rent to clients for staging homes. I am looking for either one investor or several investors with either the cash or the credit to finance the purchase of the upscale furniture, accessories, artwork, and other items needed for this new service.
I know that my new service will do very well, because I have researched and know my competition. I already have the client base to support the new service and the contacts to further it. Now to have the universe bring about the needs for this service. I'm open to any opportunity that the universe may bring concerning this, so I'll keep my eyes, ears, and heart open to what is out there.
If you know of anyone who might be interested in partnering with me to build this new service for my company, please let me know. The question now is, "How to move forward without fear, trusting that the universe will bring things about, and believing that this is the place I am to be?"
The biggest aspect I am now asking the universe to bring about is assistance in funding the new Staging Rentals service. In order to be able to reach my target audience in Austin I need to purchase around $30,000 in furniture so it will be on hand to rent to clients for staging homes. I am looking for either one investor or several investors with either the cash or the credit to finance the purchase of the upscale furniture, accessories, artwork, and other items needed for this new service.
I know that my new service will do very well, because I have researched and know my competition. I already have the client base to support the new service and the contacts to further it. Now to have the universe bring about the needs for this service. I'm open to any opportunity that the universe may bring concerning this, so I'll keep my eyes, ears, and heart open to what is out there.
If you know of anyone who might be interested in partnering with me to build this new service for my company, please let me know. The question now is, "How to move forward without fear, trusting that the universe will bring things about, and believing that this is the place I am to be?"
Finding a Balance
Over the last few months I've discovered that there has to be a balance between family, work, and social lives. After being separated from my family for a while it was difficult integrating back into the family structure. Over the years I have changed, grown, and become so different from my family that merging back into my family presents challenges. Now with the new house in Austin, I have to find ways of balancing my time between Austin and Plain Dealing.
I need to be in Austin to earn an income, visit clients, and hang out with my friends. In Plain Dealing I only have my family, which I enjoy being with, but at times believe that I am in the role of parent for all of them because I feel that if I don't provide directions, guidance and instructions then things wouldn't progress or change here. Loving people presents challenges on its own level, but when it's family, it's even harder. Having a strong desire to see them grow and become the responsible people I know they can be, have them realize the importance of actively teaching their children, and hoping that they begin to become more aware of what is going on around them. I will have to trust that the universe will bring them to where they need to be when they need to be there.
I know that the universe is presenting the opportunities for me now in Austin, so I have to do what I need to do for me. That includes spending more time in Austin. Hopefully by spending more time in Austin then I will begin to enjoy my time in Louisiana even more. Then there is the question of the Nursery. It's something I desire, but at the same time realize that in order for it to succeed then I have to work in Austin. It will be up to my family to take responsibility here and take care of things while I'm gone.
I hope during these changes that my family will grow, that they will understand why I need to take care of myself and the one business that is generating income, and how these changes will help us all grow together. I trust that the universe will bring the best together for all of us. Blessings, and ask yourself, "Where am I to be today?"
I need to be in Austin to earn an income, visit clients, and hang out with my friends. In Plain Dealing I only have my family, which I enjoy being with, but at times believe that I am in the role of parent for all of them because I feel that if I don't provide directions, guidance and instructions then things wouldn't progress or change here. Loving people presents challenges on its own level, but when it's family, it's even harder. Having a strong desire to see them grow and become the responsible people I know they can be, have them realize the importance of actively teaching their children, and hoping that they begin to become more aware of what is going on around them. I will have to trust that the universe will bring them to where they need to be when they need to be there.
I know that the universe is presenting the opportunities for me now in Austin, so I have to do what I need to do for me. That includes spending more time in Austin. Hopefully by spending more time in Austin then I will begin to enjoy my time in Louisiana even more. Then there is the question of the Nursery. It's something I desire, but at the same time realize that in order for it to succeed then I have to work in Austin. It will be up to my family to take responsibility here and take care of things while I'm gone.
I hope during these changes that my family will grow, that they will understand why I need to take care of myself and the one business that is generating income, and how these changes will help us all grow together. I trust that the universe will bring the best together for all of us. Blessings, and ask yourself, "Where am I to be today?"
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
The Burden of Life.
Lately I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed, out of sorts, unconnected, and troubled. Most of my life the universe has seen fit to bring people to me for guidance, yet most of the time I cannot seem to guide my own self. It seems I can lead others, provide them good advice, and support them so they can find their own paths in this life. Since a child I have felt alone, even when surrounded by people I know who care. I rarely recall a time that I have really wanted to be in this physical realm, however, here I am. "Why am I here? "Why do I feel so alone?" "What am I supposed to be doing?" "How can I help anyone?" These are all questions that I ask frequently, yet there is not direct response.
Having responsibility laid upon my shoulders is something I have fought against most of my life, so perhaps it is something I'm here to resolve, embrace, and accept, if not for this life, then in preparation for what is to come. At every turn in my life, even when I try to run away, the universe brings responsibility back to me. Currently I've realized that I have the responsibility to work in Austin so I can make money to support the new plant nursery, that I'm the one person who can make the plant nursery a success (as without me no one here would know what to do, how to grow the plants, etc.), and that apparently I've been placed here to guide my family.
I see some wonderful aspects of my family, like a sister with a big heart and a strong desire to be something more than she allows herself to be, a father who can laugh and play even while working hard, a mother with enthusiasm for everything, a niece who is loving and capable of so much. Then I see me, not as the world sees me, but I see the failure, the troubled mind, the worried thoughts, and the fear of being the one in charge. How do I find a way to guide my family, assist my clients, and make a plant nursery a success weights heavily upon my mind. "Did I find the correct ways to alter the energies of a home for a client?" "How do I get enough plants growing on my current limited budget?" "Why is it up to me to guide my family?" Such questions of my self are the norm.
As I sit here late into the early morning, as I'm not able to sleep, I listen to the sounds of the forest and lake outside. They calm my senses and mind, and yet there is such a yearning to go outside and be there with them, to become part of them, to be as free as they appear. I haven't been meditating, which is something I have to start doing again, I haven't been developing my spiritual aspects, and I haven't been doing so much more. I can see as I type this that I've become so overwhelmed with what is happening around me that I have neglected myself.
Tonight as I sat earlier just reading a magazine I noticed a small frog hopping on the floor by my feet. I couldn't imagine a frog in the cabin, so I got up and found him, caught him and put him outside where he belonged. However, I did have to see what message he brought to me and here it is (from www.Linsdomain.com):
So I suppose the message from the friendly little frog is that I should connect with my feelings, return to my roots of being able to go with the flow, to not allow the day-to-day activities to weight me down, to realize my own personal power, and to understand that I am here to remove negative energy from the environment of myself, my family, and my clients.
I know I am very gifted in ways others might not understand, connected to the universe in ways that even I don't understand, and that I have helped many people. Can I acknowledge this personal power, accept it, embrace it, and learn to stay centered in the storm of life? Only time will tell.
Having responsibility laid upon my shoulders is something I have fought against most of my life, so perhaps it is something I'm here to resolve, embrace, and accept, if not for this life, then in preparation for what is to come. At every turn in my life, even when I try to run away, the universe brings responsibility back to me. Currently I've realized that I have the responsibility to work in Austin so I can make money to support the new plant nursery, that I'm the one person who can make the plant nursery a success (as without me no one here would know what to do, how to grow the plants, etc.), and that apparently I've been placed here to guide my family.
I see some wonderful aspects of my family, like a sister with a big heart and a strong desire to be something more than she allows herself to be, a father who can laugh and play even while working hard, a mother with enthusiasm for everything, a niece who is loving and capable of so much. Then I see me, not as the world sees me, but I see the failure, the troubled mind, the worried thoughts, and the fear of being the one in charge. How do I find a way to guide my family, assist my clients, and make a plant nursery a success weights heavily upon my mind. "Did I find the correct ways to alter the energies of a home for a client?" "How do I get enough plants growing on my current limited budget?" "Why is it up to me to guide my family?" Such questions of my self are the norm.
As I sit here late into the early morning, as I'm not able to sleep, I listen to the sounds of the forest and lake outside. They calm my senses and mind, and yet there is such a yearning to go outside and be there with them, to become part of them, to be as free as they appear. I haven't been meditating, which is something I have to start doing again, I haven't been developing my spiritual aspects, and I haven't been doing so much more. I can see as I type this that I've become so overwhelmed with what is happening around me that I have neglected myself.
Tonight as I sat earlier just reading a magazine I noticed a small frog hopping on the floor by my feet. I couldn't imagine a frog in the cabin, so I got up and found him, caught him and put him outside where he belonged. However, I did have to see what message he brought to me and here it is (from www.Linsdomain.com):
Frog represents Transformation
The frog is the totem of metamorphosis.
It symbolizes coming into your personal power.
It reminds us not to become bogged down with day-to-day living.
It is the totem of water.
Its voice calls forth the rains.
Emotions are associated with water and
a frog totem may be telling you to get in touch with your feelings.
People with frog medicine give support and energywhere it is needed.
They can cleanse the negativity from an environment.
The frog is the totem of metamorphosis.
It symbolizes coming into your personal power.
It reminds us not to become bogged down with day-to-day living.
It is the totem of water.
Its voice calls forth the rains.
Emotions are associated with water and
a frog totem may be telling you to get in touch with your feelings.
People with frog medicine give support and energywhere it is needed.
They can cleanse the negativity from an environment.
So I suppose the message from the friendly little frog is that I should connect with my feelings, return to my roots of being able to go with the flow, to not allow the day-to-day activities to weight me down, to realize my own personal power, and to understand that I am here to remove negative energy from the environment of myself, my family, and my clients.
I know I am very gifted in ways others might not understand, connected to the universe in ways that even I don't understand, and that I have helped many people. Can I acknowledge this personal power, accept it, embrace it, and learn to stay centered in the storm of life? Only time will tell.
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